The Giant and the grasshoppers

Recently, I'm puzzled with the 2500-word essay assignment which will be due in two weeks. I'm interested to find out if animals can be saved in eschatological terms. I wonder what would happen to them. So I'll look for some views from early church fathers (e.g. Augustine) about how they viewed about animal soul. I've got some books/writings but I always think that I'm not good at writing and presenting points/arguments in a good flow. There're times that I felt so desperate and wanted to quit (e.g. let's go back to HK early, think of auditing the courses and not doing the MDiv......) I could hardly go to sleep for several nights.

In the midst of feeling stressed and inadequate, God reminds me of a bible passage in the Book of Numbers Chp13 - What the Israelite spies thought of the land that they were to entered. 10 of them thought: "We are not able to go up against this people, for they are stronger than we...and all the people that we saw in it are of great size...to ourselves we seemed like grasshoppers, and so we seemed to them...would it not be better for us to go back to Egypt? Let us choose a captain, and go back to Egypt." The assignment really seems to be a big giant to me. I feel greatly challenged and tempted to quit.

But I wish to think differently than the 10 spies, and trust God like Joshua and Caleb. They said to the congregation, "Let us go up at once and occupy it, for we are well able to overcome it...The land that we went through as spies is an exceedingly good land. If the Lord is pleased with us, he will bring us into this land and give it to us, a land that flows with milk and honey. Only do not rebel against the Lord; and do not fear the people of the land, for they are no more than bread for us; their protection is removed from them, and the Lord is with us; do not fear them."

What an astounding view!! May I learn to pray more diligently and have faith with God. Also I'm so grateful that Connie also comforted me and reassured that this would be a great lesson to learn, and I must endure all the hardships and stress.

Please pray for me that I'll find strength in the Lord and experience Him fully.

Autumn is so beautiful here in Vancouver. (Click here to see more photos)
Let us remember God's grace. Enjoy!!

In remembrance of Uncle Big and Grandma, whom I lost within a month

Uncle Big, you've lived an extraordinary life. Stories about you that I heard from my mom seem to be found only in movies. I guess these are only bits and pieces of your legend. I've longed to chat with you and to know more about you and your feelings; however, I could not overcome the fear from your extravaganza. It was difficult to get to know your minds.

The most wonderful conversation that I treasured most was taken place at BH while you had your cancer treatment. The way you talked to Aunt, Connie and me showed me your loving and sentimental side of you. I am so glad and relieved that you humbly accepted Christ as your saviour when you were at your last stage of life. I thank God for His mercy and steadfast love. May your family also find comfort in Him. I'll pray and care for Aunties and KK, HY.

Grandma, I'm so thankful that I could come back to HK for attending your funeral. It was a great memory that I could 'send you off' with our family and the Pangs. I miss you but I did not feel disheartened. You will always be in my heart. May you find peace and joy with our Lord Jesus Christ.