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Abigail Jackline--Father's joy. To Connie and me, Abigail is a wonderful blessing from God, our precious jewel. God blessed us with Abigail as Connie and I went through the journey of infertility.

Eliana Faith--God answers. God hears our cries and heals us not only emotionally, but He also gives us Eliana, a precious gift, as a sign of his faithfulness.

Monday, October 27, 2008

The Giant and the grasshoppers

Recently, I'm puzzled with the 2500-word essay assignment which will be due in two weeks. I'm interested to find out if animals can be saved in eschatological terms. I wonder what would happen to them. So I'll look for some views from early church fathers (e.g. Augustine) about how they viewed about animal soul. I've got some books/writings but I always think that I'm not good at writing and presenting points/arguments in a good flow. There're times that I felt so desperate and wanted to quit (e.g. let's go back to HK early, think of auditing the courses and not doing the MDiv......) I could hardly go to sleep for several nights.

In the midst of feeling stressed and inadequate, God reminds me of a bible passage in the Book of Numbers Chp13 - What the Israelite spies thought of the land that they were to entered. 10 of them thought: "We are not able to go up against this people, for they are stronger than we...and all the people that we saw in it are of great size...to ourselves we seemed like grasshoppers, and so we seemed to them...would it not be better for us to go back to Egypt? Let us choose a captain, and go back to Egypt." The assignment really seems to be a big giant to me. I feel greatly challenged and tempted to quit.

But I wish to think differently than the 10 spies, and trust God like Joshua and Caleb. They said to the congregation, "Let us go up at once and occupy it, for we are well able to overcome it...The land that we went through as spies is an exceedingly good land. If the Lord is pleased with us, he will bring us into this land and give it to us, a land that flows with milk and honey. Only do not rebel against the Lord; and do not fear the people of the land, for they are no more than bread for us; their protection is removed from them, and the Lord is with us; do not fear them."

What an astounding view!! May I learn to pray more diligently and have faith with God. Also I'm so grateful that Connie also comforted me and reassured that this would be a great lesson to learn, and I must endure all the hardships and stress.

Please pray for me that I'll find strength in the Lord and experience Him fully.

Autumn is so beautiful here in Vancouver. (Click here to see more photos)
Let us remember God's grace. Enjoy!!




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  1. SYHY MamaOctober 27, 2008 at 10:56 p.m.

    aiya, i am attracted by the beautiful autumn vancouver...maybe we should consider to come in late Oct....

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  2. Ho Keung and Yin PingOctober 29, 2008 at 10:34 p.m.

    We empathize with your feelings and would keep you in our prayers. We appreciate that you let yourself depend on God more and let Him be your strength. We trust that all your feelings, whether positive or negative, will not be in vain. Our Heavenly Father is able to make use of all these to train you to be a better person for His kingdom.

    About the beautiful Vancouver autumn - envy, envy envy!!! Although the scenery here of maples changing coulours is not half as magnificient as that in your place, every autumn we 'get drunk' already by the sight. We can't help praising God's power and grace.

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